Apathy Tree

I would love to see a sword of truth series, but not done as an action thriller with shallow characters, because that’s just not what it is, damnit.

I had a puppy that specifically ate the crotch of all my underpants in the laundry. She was pooping out ladybugs and tye dye for days.

I did this in my car by accident multiple times way back in the day (like 2004). Stop for food after work, eat the fries and forget about the burger, which gets buried under stuff (I keep my car generally cleaner these days; I was a teen). It dries out completely with no actual change in appearance, smell, nothing but turning rock hard. Gross.

Needless to say, I haven’t eaten there in almost 20 years, other than an occasional fries on a road trip when that’s all there is.

Is it just me or does your average rpg today seem just… easier overall than they used to be? I feel that’s where a lot of this problem comes from for me, because I’m always expecting it to get hard and it doesn’t. (😏)

There’s a few games here and there where dying happens a lot and consumables and constant gear upgrades are very needed, but the majority of them you don’t need most of the consumables or gear you get anyway. They feel like dopamine hit filler content.

Like I’m playing biomutant right now, and there’s a lot of consumables (and so so so much mostly junk gear) to loot throughout the game… but there’s also a heal ability that you can unlock and use on a timer, plus health refills outside of combat, so now that my weapons and armor are a lot stronger, even tho the enemies scale with you, it’s been dozens of hours of active play since I’ve used a consumable of any variety, and there’s at least half the game to go. And this has been a fairly consistent experience in games this decade or so, maybe longer even. I’m not a great gamer; I’m too lazy to learn to block or parry in any game, ever, and dodging is a maybe skill, only if it’s easy to perform… so it’s not at all that I’ve gotten better or anything…

Well now I’ve got the banana song stuck in my head… (from memory so if I got any wrong, too bad)

Charlie, you look quite down, with your big sad eyes and your big fat frown, the world doesn’t have to be so gray.

Charlie, when your life’s a mess; when you’re feeling blue, always in distress, I know what will wash your sad away.

All you have to do is put a banana in your ear, you will never be happy if you live your life in fear.

It’s true, so true, when it’s in the world is bright and clear, the bad in the world is hard to hear when in your ear a banana cheers, so go and stick a banana in your ear!

ETA: video, cuz then I had to go listen to it anyway. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=EqwYzi_IG6k

For me it’s this comic (keeping to things related to SpongeBob). It’s kinda long, multiple pages, but definitely worth it.

http://stillinthesimulation.com/untitled-comic/the-bikini-bottom-horror-chapter-1-rise-of-the-star/

I’ve had a carrot cat too! I sliced some up and dehydrated them then sewed them into a toy and she just loved it! The trick I found is to break the pieces inside the toy now and then to release more of the smell (same way catnip works really).

Does your carrot cat also like swimwear that’s been used in a chlorinated pool, but not yet washed? Mine treated that like catnip, too.

I think this played out in my home last year around this time. (You can just skip reading it; this is catharsis for me…) (I’m debating just deleting this catharsis but I’m going to post it because I wrote it…)

I had one cat who hated everyone but me and sometimes her housemate. She was 16, but in pretty good health. The other I’d had for 10 years but idk how old he was, probably 5-10 when I got him. They didn’t get along that well, but he gave her space. He was a lover with multiple health issues who was on his way out for years. Importantly, he left her alone for the most part. She liked that about him.

I wanted kittens to learn his hyper-friendly ways and be good with her, too, because I thought she’d be around a while yet, and at least a few months on loverboy, so I got a pair from a barn. Runts; the only ones they could catch. Way too fragile to be in my care, but probably had a better chance with me.

One week after the kittens came home, the friendly cat had to be put down, he was ready to go, stopped eating and wouldn’t cuddle, he told me he was ready. So I scheduled it. I was ready for that to happen and had been since 2016 when the vet said he had 6 mths left. In retrospect he was telling me that for a while before that and I didn’t pick it up. That’s on me, and I accept it.

Next morning, the day of the euthanasia, woke up to one of the kittens being gone, she was failing to thrive and I didn’t think she was going to make it, but it still sucked really hard. They are buried together because other people seem to think that’s poetic or something… he waited for her, or some such. And that sounds nice so I went with it. (this was 15JUL)

The remaining kitten was depressed as hell, wouldn’t play or do anything for days, and even the crabby 16 seemed sad that her companion of the past 10 years was gone… got another kitten from that same barn but the grief did its damage… the kittens were ok with each other but they aren’t siblings or anything and they haven’t really bonded the way I’d like.

Just when the kittens were starting to win over the crabby girl, she up and stroked out on me out of nowhere on 02SEP, plunging my house further into chaos (I was ready for my boy to go… I wasn’t expecting that…)

Now I have a cat (kitten no longer) who suckles blankets for comfort, and another who gets misplaced aggressive when she sees another cat (and sometimes squirrels??). So you know, the trauma is real, and idk really how to help them, but it was a lot for them to experience in their formative stages… and I mean I was depressed about it the whole time too (as an unrelated bonus, one of my turtles died in November…), so that certainly didn’t help…

Old school saw horse ;)

You can make or buy something like this if you can’t do clips.

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Im super glad it works for you, same with a self-directed name :)

No need for sorrow, I think I’m just too old to see myself the way I’d have liked several decades back :)

Either way, I hope you have a wonderful night friend! I hope to run into you again :)

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There’s no name I actively want to go by, is the problem. I’ve tried with minor changes but nobody took them and they aren’t things I can just be like “this is me” because it… wouldn’t be actually? I’m envious of people who have the option to choose their own name, or how to apply it. Mine is so short there’s like 2 nickname options and I hate both. Passionately.

Best I’ve ever come up with would take a full name change (first middle last) to be worth doing. And that’s not worth doing.

I’m super glad it was effective for you, though, honestly that’s what matters. If it matters enough that you have a preference, it matters. My preference is just “anything else please” and that’s not a good option for most people, which… legit.

No judgement on your relationships, whatever works. I haven’t the energy to be weird about it :)

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