I don’t understand how you make this a political thing. Do you by chance live in the US? There is a lot of polarisation there.

As a woman myself, I think some people understand feminism differently than others. I don’t agree with women that just spit hate on men simply because they are men. Feminism is about empowering women to be whatever they like and be equal to men in society, relationships, family, work. I had my fair share of discrimination in my life based on my gender, and I constantly fight against it, but that does not make me just hate men by default. I know a lot of men that are on the same page with me about how we should be as a society. And a society where we are all getting along is so much better than a polarised one.

I am lucky to have found a husband that is secure with his masculinity(whatever that means to him), that he does not feel threatened about me having, for example, hobbies like woodworking, or having some muscles on my body. That does not mean I don’t find him masculine, because I do.

We are all shades of masculinity and femininity, and blocking one of these sides from us is just stupid. We are what we are and we can get along just fine with each other with a bit of effort. We don’t have to hate on the ones that are not like us.

And my interests often limit my ability to find good people to be friends with. Though I will admit igot some good friends among them who don’t suck.

To this I say, try new hobbies and activities. Volunteer somewhere, that will make you find nice people. You need to find friends that are awesome for you, not just that don’t suck. Some great friendships can be very healing for the soul.

There are plenty of examples of wonderful men, go find one and make friends with him. Unless you mistreated women constantly, why would you think, by default, that your are awful?

It’s a shame that in some cultures simple friendships men, women, mixed are not accompanied by physical touch too, like a hug. And also being able to talk openly about the struggles, like us women do with our friends. You get a lot from a friend’s hug or them listening to you.

Wiser than me with Julia Louis-Dreyfus - she interviews a lot of senior famous ladies and talk about all the knowledge they gathered during their lives. I really like it. It is full of knowledge, humor, feelings, it is a privilege to learn from these women with such vast experiences.

Whatever I find on Radio Garden app.

Blondie in China - an Australian food vlogger in China. Boy do I crave some Chinese spicy food now.

Lots of people working as headless chickens, as always… The strange thing I can rant about is, that we have a strange colleague since forever, and she takes turns with whom to have conflicts with. I am pretty sure she has severe OCD, she opens doors only with tissue papers, she uses all the paper from the kitchens and bathrooms, she floods the toilets with so much paper, she uses all the soap, stuff like that. I don’t know how OCD works, because she is not especially a very clean person, it is somehow selective what she cleans. She sometimes comes with the same trousers day after day in the office.

If somebody brings cake or candy for the whole office, she takes all of it if the plates get to be unsupervised. She has an obsession with food. I saw one day on her desk a bag with at least 15 bread buns. They did not last long. She sometimes eats raw onion in the kitchen, imagine how that stinks. She farts in the office from what I heard. I don’t sit next to her, so I cannot confirm that, luckily.

Latest issue she developed is that she does not like light to come into the office, so there are conflicts with a colleague, because the others do not want to work in a bunker. There are a lot of tensions right now about this. She lies and acts like a victim with the managers. It is not the first conflict she has and that she is lying. And she is not a good developer, although she thinks she is superior to the others and treats people shit, she is a bully, especially with other women. Who knows what kind of trauma she lived in her life. Sometimes I am sorry for her, because she makes her life miserable. But she does make our life harder also, then I am not sorry for her anymore. She tried to bully me too, but I have zero tolerance for that behavior and I treated her harshly and she got the message. She avoids me now if possible.

It‘s shitty to have such a person in the office, everyone else is getting along very well. She clearly needs help, but nobody does anything. A few years ago, I left a self help book about OCD on her desk. Looks like it did not help.

Wicked. Like when you dream you woke up from a sleep. That happend to me twice in a loop.

So you imagined you were the child? Interesting.

Ha ha, true! I was imagining a boy.

Imagine the following: you see a room with a table and a chair in the middle. On top of the table there is a ball. A kid comes into the room, climbs the chair and tries to grab the ball that sits on the table. Did you finish imagining? I want you to answer for yourself now what was the color of the hair of the kid? What about of what he was wearing? Did you imagine these kind of details or you just imagined some concepts?

In my case I did see all the details and many more. My imagination is like a movie. I can imagine my future house with a lot of details inside. I can build it and rebuild it in my mind. Some people have problems to do that.

Decomposing at old age in some field snd then a tree grows out of me