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Cake day: August 1st, 2025

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  • I’m a somewhat feminine man myself, and man I hear where you’re coming from. And truth be told, you’ve managed to accept yourself the way you are earlier than I did. It took me a while to accept myself.

    I also get the impression, though, that you have a traumatic response to the whole situation due to your upbringing. And it seems to me that that is something that you’ve accepted on the surface, but deep down, you’re still fighting with it. Which, by the way, is OK and normal. This shit takes time and work. If you have access in any way to mental healthcare, use it. You need to work through what you’ve experienced and learn how to deal with it better.

    And I’m not sure I quite understood the situation completely - but if you’re still living with your parents, pull out all the stops to move out. As soon as possible. Otherwise, it will only keep dragging you down. As you’ve alluded to, despite all the shit happening today, there’s still a brighter world out there than what you’re experiencing with your family. It will be worth it, I promise.







  • If you mean what you can do to prevent your own panic attacks - I know of a number of people who have massage rings (aka therapy rings) and massage balls. When they feel a panic attack coming, they will use them by for example squeezing the massage ball pretty hard so it causes a slight amount of pain, and that has a similar effect. As @tomenzgg@midwest.social mentioned, the goal is to shift your attention from the panic attack.

    Also, since panic attacks are often coupled with hyperventilation, the breathing into a bag trick isn’t some TV trope, it actually works. I had to drive a friend of mine to the hospital for a severe panic attack and they did the bag thing, and I was blown away by how quickly she stopped hyperventilating and calmed down.



  • “All opinions other than mine are only supported by dopamine highs” - wow, what a great new way of being condescendingly dismissive!

    OP actually left the consequences of climate change open. No, it probably won’t be a Mad Max inferno. Probably not. But we also don’t know where the tipping point of the oceans is, because they are storing a shit ton of carbon. Hit that tipping point, and that carbon may well suddenly be released into the air, and then the shit hits the fan.

    But even if that scenario doesn’t happen, and the world is still theoretically perfectly livable, you mentioned one of the main problems: mass migration. We already see what that’s doing today. We’re not far away from World War 3 anymore. So yes, the question is perfectly legitimate.

    (And before anyone thinks it: I’m not blaming the migrants, of course they’re not at fault, they have every right to look for a better life. The people at fault are entirely different, but it doesn’t change the fact there is a causational relationship)



  • When people have created a narrative that “white x y z men” are responsible for all the evil in the world (I’m exagerating, but you get my drift), it creates a very difficult situation when those people are facing some serious difficulties. The intellectually lazy thing to do in that case is to brush it off or minimize it, like in the ways you’ve described. And unfortunately, that’s the route those same people will take, since identity politics are intellectually lazy (and lacking compassion, but that’s another story).

    The unfortunate part of it is that the right has taken advantage of that wide open flank, which is one main reasons we’re in this current clusterfuck.



  • Reminds me of an ad from over a decade ago. (For those who speak German: youtube, sorry, I want able to get an invidious Link working )

    A woman is sitting at a bar, and a man in a suit comes up and sits right next to her, taps his car keys on the table, and then lays them on the table and moves them towards her.

    “400 horsepower, 12 cylinders, top speed 296…” He nods proudly. “Tomorrow evening 7 o’clock?”

    She grabs a large key on her keychain and shows it to him: “10,877 horsepower, top speed 330, tomorrow morning, 8:43…” She puts the key on the table and pushes it next to his key. “…track 7”.

    The ad was from the German railroad attempting to recruit drivers.


  • I mean, we could say the same thing about Kent - when he’s getting pissy, it’s about ensuring the filesystem is bulletproof and no one loses data.

    Thing is, we’re not talking about getting pissy. We’re talking about getting downright insulting and borderline abusive. Linus got suspended from his own goddamn Kernel for his behavior. Let that sink in for a moment.

    And I honestly believe that’s where part of the problem comes from. Kent looks up to Linus in a way, and sees himself as entitled to mimicking Linus’s bad behavior, which turns into a clusterfuck. Linux is still a good kernel despite Linus’s behavior, and bcachefs seems to be pretty good from a technical standpoint despite Kent’s behavior (even the kernel maintainers Kent pissed off admit it). They both shouldn’t be behaving that way, period. But both are very talented from a technical standpoint, which makes policing their behavior that much harder.

    Ideally, yes, someone else would take over communication with Linus, but my hope isn’t particularly high at the moment. I wish Kent would calm down (further) and play by the rules more (even though he’s far from the only one who has broken those rules), and I wish Linus would learn to take it as much as he dishes it out.

    And that makes it such a shame: bcachefs would be great to have in the kernel from a technical standpoint. It’s the personal conflicts that are really messing things up at the moment.



  • The point of these next gen file systems aren’t raw performance, they are reliability, performance for specific cases, and reduced data usage. For example:

    • Copy on Write means it’s very performant to create snapshots

    • incremental backups are much quicker

    • checksumming means the filesystem directly and reliably detects data corruption

    • built-in support for raid means a simplified setup and integration of scrubbing features into the filesystem, which can then take advantage of checksumming etc.

    • deduplication can automatically recognize duplicated data and as such reduce data use

    These are things that tend to reduce performance, not increase it. Which is why, when performance on these filesystems stays the same or even increases, that’s a major accomplishment.


  • It’s not quite as one sided as you put it, either. The most recent last minute feature was pushed for rc3, and wasn’t big filled. It was also a feature that enhanced stability, which is the reason Kent submitted it there. I’m not saying he’s right, but it’s important context here. And he’s far from the only one who has done this. Someone recently added new hardware support in rc7.

    Also, he has improved somewhat. Arguably not as much as he should, but things aren’t as bad as they originally were.

    And as to the attitude - he’s in good company, honestly. Especially in regard to Linus, them judging Kent is like a group of lepers judging a beauty contest. That’s the point this article makes very well.

    None of this excuses his behaviour, but it is important to put it into context.



  • You don’t have to apologize for “therapy speak” - this is off my chest, after all. And it seems, it needed to get out, you needed to tell someone, you wanted to be heard. And that is completely legitimate. In fact, it’s a step in the right direction - you’ve come from bottling it up to telling someone - even if it’s “just” on the internet. It’s a important step forward.

    What you’re feeling is entirely justified. What happened to you is unacceptable, and high blood pressure or whatever else is no excuse. Most importantly, it’s not your fault. You had a right to a proper childhood.

    I don’t know how the healthcare situation is where you live, but I would recommend looking into therapy. It’s not an overnight cure, give it plenty of time - I mean, years. It will be worth it.

    Also, I don’t know if you still live with your mother - if you do, I would be sure to move out. Find an apprenticeship you like, find an interesting job, an interesting field of study, something that gets you amount like minded people. Maybe there are some programming related jobs around? If you already have a history on whichever git platform, that can look great on a resume.

    Sending you a hug from the other side of the internet. It’s going to be OK.

    P.S. Many adults don’t really feel much like adults, either. You’re in good company.