I didn’t think you were talking about you as a partner for me at all lol. So funny how you had to clarify that twice.

And I get all, but my position still stands. But reading the post again, I guess my initial comment doesn’t really have much to do with it. In the back of my mind I’ll be feeling not-so-special. Best if I stay single until I work on that insecurity properly.

Yhhhh but it’s sorta the same. Like, how many other girls have you used that on? What were their reactions? It just makes me think like that but I have issues…

I don’t like that though, being on the receiving end. Thinking about how you’ve done this with other girls. Not a good feeling…

Sounds amazing. Currently doing a 5 day.

I wish I had that type of adhd

That’s amazing.

Did it help?

Oh no :/

Wow that’s amazing. I think I might have UC. Did it help your symptoms?

What’s TPN?

Do you know what triggered the cramps?

How come you went without for two days?

What I meant was by spending all that money and eating when I didn’t need to I was putting my family including myself in jeopardy.

Maybe one day I’ll get to OMAD too.

Heavy on the can die. There are probably people who could die at 24 hours depending on the circumstances.

I am happy that I made it that far. Further than ever before. I have done 72 hours once but with water and black coffee though. But there was shame around how I ended it…(for reasons I won’t fully go into rn). I would like to get to 7 full days and I know I can and will even feel better for it. Someone else may have a completely different response than me if they try that but I know deep in my bones that it will be healing for me regardless of what anyone says. I know it’s been done before by others too.

I guess it’s a combination of the amount I spent and on what that feels indulgent along with that I wasn’t actually hungry etc. and about it endangering my family, it does sound far fetched or quite extreme of a statement but it feels true and I won’t go into why or how right now.

Yes. It is about stress and for some like me, eating is a stressor. Alongside talking to a professional which honestly I can’t see myself doing atm.

I can see how it seems that way but it’s more about the way they are and how I relate to that. G is better with people, not hiding away and when I’m in a state of gratitude I find it easier to engage with people. Whereas E has the opposite experience and is cast away from the group and I find when I’m in that position I feel envy… I’m not explaining this very well but it’s a “shower thought” I had

Enlighten me?

OMAD for 8 years is amazing.

I don’t think it’s at the expense of my own health since I feel better for it and I am drawn to it for a reason. It feels healing. There’s so much food noise for me it’s practically all I think about and I hate that.

I suppose I feel the need to hide the fact that I did this. It feels too indulgent and it’s too much of a consistent thing for me, bad habit. I’ve never dry fasted that long before though.

Doing what I’ve just done feels like I’ve just diseased myself and put my family in jeopardy. Sounds dramatic but eating in this state feels wrong. I don’t feel truly grateful as I know I could be. I understand how this could sound damaging but it’s my truth. I feel sick and like I’m not letting my body properly heal everytime I eat or drink something.

I explain why in the post I made just before this one.

Thank you. I feel so sad right now. And bad that I feel sad. I want to be a happy positive force. A light worker like people in my family. But I’m just a disappointment and I stink.

Great point. But it’s men I crave. It’s not about if no one cares. I thought that was obvious.

I don’t really want a bf or anything that badly atm tbh. I’ll settle for licking and sucking on a piece of ham atp.

That sounds really bad but it’s sadly true…

But I’m waiting til marriage. Sometimes when I eat and I’m in the mood I imagine what I’m eating or drinking is the person I want and I’m doing things to them. Sorry if tmi.

I think the fact that it looks like human and *apparently * tastes and smells! according to firefighters, like human, makes me want to try that out on it. plus the guy I like is big like a pig… but in a sexy way